... Then I would recieve a new title when all this will be over.
"Dramma Queen".

orz

Atleast half of the work's behind me.

EDIT: T-That's it. I'm pulling an all-nighter.

Wish it was Out of the country, but i still had a really great time. Drinking tea with baboons [I don't know why I'm still laughing like a loon everytime I hear this stupid joke]

Now I hafta work, since I have... a little bit more than 24 hours to sew a yukata. and find a keyboard. Funfun.


... Who am I kidding I'm so stressed out I get zits from the air touching my skin aahh
WHY AM I EVEN UPDATING THIS
I'M GOING TO DIE

Good thing my next cosplay's 80% complete or I'd totally procrastinate by december and kill myself.

Last time I checked, I don't need a psychologist, and it may sound cocky but Yeah, I happen to be a lot more worth it than you.
If I'm such an ego-centric, horrible person then you shouldn't even try to talk to me.

So leave me alone, you goddamn whiny. boneless little fucktard.

We have barely two weeks until the con, and we barely started sewing. ;3; kya
I'm going to stalk Tohru [Yui] on the phone 'till we get somewhere now.




I just love this song. Luka's songs are win. I wish I knew its lyrics.

I don't feel like writing about anything. OTL
But here goes. things that are going on

x Been progressing on my Cosplay. I'll be Mugi from K-ON!, part of a cast for a con at August 20. <3 I'm waiting for my wig, how long does it even take for those stuff to arrive? -_-


x I started watching Macross Frontier. Even though the plot is nothing more than a "Love Triangle IN SPACE" oh and there some space monsters and bad guys as a cover, I still love it. I probably watch it only for the songs, Sheryl and Brera. Alto-hime too. yeah.

x I'm playing Devil Summoner 2: Raidou Kuzunoha vs King Abaddon. Lovin' every moment of it. I'm reaching the end and still having hard time with powerful not-plot-related bosses like Plae Rider. That guy is like Satan on a horse. ... Sorry, make that Satan on 3 horses.
Not fun.
I wish Raidou Would stop fainting every 15 mintues for chapter though.

x I want a DS so bad. Devil Survivor's like.. calling me from beyond. But I'm spending all my work money for the month on a new computer [since mine has reached the lovely bnumber of 12 years of livelyhood

But,
I want to run away. far, far away. When I can actually feel like an adult, silly and cheerful girl.

And I don't really give a damn about how ungrateful I am. I just hate reaching my limit.

EVER.
I slept for something like, more than 25 hours non-straight. So when I get up I feel like road-roller just ran me over. Repeatedly.

But I'm still sick so I haft go get blood shots first thing tomorrow morning.
I don't know, 's like I'm the only person I know that's not afraid of injections. Some chilhood trauma I missed anyone?


I need a good movie to watch. I was completely bored these two days and Family Guy episodes appearently doesn't work when you watch them for the 6th time.

Aw this flu or whatever it is blows
bad

I mean why am I even typing instead of crawling back to my bed
brb crawling

I'm such a complain bitch
sorry

At least if this keeps up It won't get caught up in my job
SINCE APPEARNTLY I WON'T HAVE ANY B|
Aw who cares dead people don't have to work

I get this sickness every once in a while but I wonder how many yaers will pass before I'll get used to it |:
I can't even stroll outside a little, my head'll fall off
So I'm just stay in bed and play and eat some sweets
It's the end of the year this friday and I already feel like I'm atta vacation even though I have like... 2 more exams left.
AND THEN IT'S HELLO SLUMBER-TILL-4-O'CLOCK
At this rate the bed'll be my grave too OTL

.. So France's my daddy, huh? Now it's all clear....

But of course Poland rats me out, I just married Liet! OTL

On another note.
Started sewing cause the sewing machine doesn't scare me so much anymore. Old's the best, [s]just like me![/s]

All the pretests squeezed my brainjuice out, but the real thing was easyy

Also
WHY IS UMINEKO SWITCHING BACK TO JAPANESEEE THE PATCH WORKED OUT WELL UNTIL NOW!!
NOOOOO I want to continue readinggggg
June can't come soon enough, with the complete patch.. Even though I'm already fed up with spoilers (Not my fault! Well it is but I really couldn't resist) I'm so into this VN. There's going to be an Anime in July, but I don't like most of the character designs, except of Shannon and Kannon that turned out even better than expected. [HELL YEESSS AMI KOSHIMIZU AS ROSAAAA]


Later today I'm gonna check out a sewing class in Rehovot, it's a city 30-minutes away from here so I can catch a bus anytime. I always wanted to sew, partially for making my own clothes, partially for making plushies and mainly for Cosplay. I hope It'll turn out well!
I have a sewing machine at home but... She makes weird sounds that a sewing machine isn't supposed to make. like, "Nyaaarrgh"
It's really creeping me and mom out so she's kind of afraid to teach me B|

My hands are smelly from all the glue.
My hands and back hurt from sitting all day from cutting and making papercrafts. But I don't care. :D .. I think


Math exam two days from now. Now say that you loved me and put flowers on my grave.
But I get better slowly. Now all I gotta do is fast-forward.

I'm thinking about going back to play RO for a while now :D Installing Sakray's a pain but I kinda miss RO. The only MMORPG that I fully enjoyed.
... I should go back to cutting the papercraft. If It'll take any longer for today I'll die. I'm that addicted.

PERSONA 3 PAPERCRAFT WHERE

Just found it on facebook and decided to fill it for the lulz
If you tick more than 22 X, you're crowned as king of Idiots!

A gum fell out of your mouth while you talked. ()

A gum fell out of your mouth while you didn't talk. ()

You ran into a glass door. (X)

You jumped out of a driving vehicle. (X)

You thought about something funny out-of-the-blues and started laughing. (X)

You ran into a bush. (X)

You knew it's possible to lick your elbow. (X)

You tried to lick your elbow. (X)

You ate something inedible. (X)

Your shoes went untied and you tripped over them. (X)

You chocked out of your own saliva. (X) [I DON'T EVEN KNOW]

You saw a movie and understand nothing of it! (X)

You hick-up from your nose once. (X) [I SWEAR]

You drank out of a straw and it went up your nose. (X)

You caught yourself drooling. (X)

You were half-asleep during class (X) - not only half, but hey, watcha gon' do.

You're funny. (X)?

You threw food at someone because he annoyed you. (X)

Suddenly you stopped thinking. (X)

You started telling a story and forgot what where you about to say in the middle of it. (X)

You held hands with someone you don't even know. ()

You were told to use your inner voice a lot. ()

You use your fingers for simple math calculation (X)

You ate a bug. (X)

You talk to yourself. (X)

You wore something upside down and didn't realize it til you've been told so. (X)

You broke a lot of things. (X)

You're friends know not to use complicated, long words around you. ()

You tilt your head when you're confused. (X)

You throw a shoe at someone for the fun of it... (X)

The word "Umm.." Is used frequently. (X)

You banged your head in the wall to see if the wall is damaged. (X)

You threw a cellphone to someone in the air and it broke. ()

You ate your little brother/sister's chewed food. ()

You tasted your pet's food. (X)

You cursed someone and ran away. (X)

You were bitch-talking about a teacher when she was right behind you. ()

... 28 X....
IT COULD BE WORSE, RIGHT? B|

Got Devil Kings after such a long time I longed to play it ♥ (Thanks again Nastya)
It appears I suck in action games as always, but I'm slowly getting it through! I killed Masamune D: and Yukimura and Oda-chan (LOL JUST DON'T ASK) and to my surprise, I managed to stay alive playing Kasuga. I like her a lot more now, she's so kyuuut


Hmm
I've been thinking a lot about opening an Icon journal now
I'm only into PS for two months now, and a lot of people tell me I'm good about what I do. But I'm still not very secure about myself. and I don't even know basic LJ stuff like fake cuts and codes. B| I'm slow at those things. That, and when I look at other talented icon-makers here.. It's not like I'm jealous! I just want to be better all the time.

Uhmmm
That's a few stuff I did lately. what do you guys think?

♪ You know this feeling when you want to grab the joystick and play something? Buuuuut you have no idea what? I have it for like... a couple'o months now. Nothing but P4, I went through it the third time today and like ".. okay now stop it. don't hit load don't hit load DON'T HIT LOAD DAMMIT"
Maybe I should just finish P3: The answer already. My save went ka-poof and I was mad so I left it be for a while D: I kinda miss Akihiko and Junpei now when I think about it.

♪ I read some Hetalia today. I hope I'm gonna catch up soon. I can't even decide on a favorite character. ;A; I just know the Scandinavians need more love! First time I saw Denmark my eyes like, popped out. And Sweden and Poland [he's not related to this - I just really like him as well] reminds me of myself too much.
Eh, I don't much to talk about today. Started saying I'm too lazy to continue playing everything I started and it got stretched.


I'm still at the beginning of The Olympus stage in Kindgom Hearts, that barrel breaking. ... It's like those blasted boxes are telling me to give it up. D:| eeeeee

I don't want to sound petty, but I had better.
I got hurt in gym class [tho it was kinda cool how my knee turned radio-active purple like that LOLOL] So I couldn't really go out anywhere like I wanted, and parents had nothing better to do and stayed in the house all day long.
I ate a nice cake. and received many "happy birthdays" from people, and it really made me happy.
It was a quiet, nice birthday to spend. ... I guess.


Can I skip to the part where I'm smiling?

I HAD JUST FOUND MY ULTIMATE GOAL IN LIFE.

http://global.ebay.com/Kotobukiya_Sengoku_Basara_figure_box_set_of_10_PRESALE/130298199951/item

http://global.ebay.com/Kotobukiya_One_Coin_Figure_Sengoku_Basara_P_2_Set_x_10/310129392002/item

THIS.

I don't care hell it costs like my life, THOSE BABIES ARE MINE. TOTALLY.
OH MY GOD DATE AND YUKIMURA LOOK CUTE I COULD JUST EAT THEM WHOLE UP
SUMMER JOB HERE I COME [for some reason I can't find a job where I live, everyone needs guys to work during the time where I'm in school, so every year dad sets me summer job :D]

Ah, and Yesterday's independence day? WAS BEYOND AWESOME. I disocered that I could actually dance [somewhat] and I bought that squiggly, purple... thing, and made a lot of basara impressions on it. it's so cute. Right now, his name's Oichi cus he's purple and stupid.

With all does mood swings I'm having lately, I feel like a pregnant woman...
I probably wrote about it here before, but I feel somewhat... like I'm not good enough for everyone I know? 's not like there aren't any people who care about me. It's just that... Guh, I don't know.
I guess I just really want someone to hold me dearly. even if it's just one person. I don't care which way, really. It's kind of dumb, but in some way everyone need that kind of affection, right?
I don't feel any of it. I love all my friends, and want to get closer to people I don't know so much yet..
[why am I updating this journal only when I have to rant about my meaningless ponders]


Onto other subject.. I never really thought about it until now (really!) but this friday's gonna be my 18th birthday. So why do I feel like a 13 year old each passing day? xD

I did, might I brag, Fantastic on my math test yesterday. Even tho I was like -

*Entering the classroom at morning*
Friend: "Hey,"
"Hey, g'morning"
"Did you study?
"... wat?"
"Math test. today...."
"..Ooh. right. Oh, well."

Maybe it's all the studying that stresses me out. I hope my feeling about this will pay off! I haven't gotten a passing grade in math since the 3rd grade. D: